Chills.

It runs down my spine and I shiver, hoping nobody noticed. It's like I just realized something terrible, or maybe it is the contrast in temperature between my hands and body. It is supposed to warm my body but it doesn't seem to help, if anything it makes me feel even more uncomfortable. The chills make me wonder how my body really works. I have taken so many biology courses that you might think I would know by now, but I really don't. It still amazes me that I can do things without thinking about it, it's natural. But, I still haven't really determined what that really implies yet. I still don't understand what sparked the first form of life. Textbooks will tell you that it was a coincidental combination of proteins and electricity, but that seems so incredible. I can't fathom life happening by chance. All along I can't believe what religion tells us either. I can't see any evidence of a god who cares enough about the world to make it a better place. So here I am trying to assess what I believe in, and here I am once again with no credence.